Sunday, November 05, 2006
I'm so pissed off and hugely disappointed by my own performance as IC during the 2nd SIt test...i've failed as the IC as the mission failed becos it is the 1st for the day!!!
When i saw tat everyone's action was moving veri slowly, i knew tat i'm going to F by the Sir...
Everyone's mind was like still in zzz mode for the 1st 2 missions same as yesterday, we failed the 1st failed and when the minds start to wake up, we complete our mission on time!!!
Coming to think of why i had failed as a leader,the summarise points are :
- Its the 1st mission of the day and i did not pushed my ppl to wake up !!!
- There are 1 pplz in the grp whwo do not listen to me and kept suggesting different methods when i'm executing my own methods !!! <>
- 2nd IC was not making decision and cooperative with me although we are the same platoon and we both knew each others. <>
- 2nd IC apologise to me after the mission as i told him wht i feel abt him...and he realised tat he was presurrizing me during the mission which are not at all going to help to complete the mission as my 2nd IC ( maybe his mind is still zzz mode while i forced myself to wake up and think of solutions with the team )
I'm not cut to be a leader ... no command school for me ... as i onli been made once IC in 2 days and my mission was F up ... my interview with the accessor for the 1st day lasted the longest in my detail and when i go back to platoon level, my bunkmate was cheering me out and they listen and encouraging me ... i'm feeling real down for the whole of sit test ...maybe i should listen to AH ... let go of been a leader when the time is up ...
Signing
off, [NAME HERE].
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